you know erning...life is a blur
Saturday, October 06, 2012
dream recall
i dreamt about this girl and i...was trying to find a creative way to catch her attention. so i made a video of me, along with somewhat random people, kneeling on one knee, in public...begging to give me a chance to prove myself to her. it was a silent film like video only its not in black in white but....sepia, with a bit of color. she replied with a video of her, again, silent film style, walking up the stairs, signaling a peck on the cheek on an invisible guy, which i interpreted to mean, "sure, lets find out". then kept on walking up until she disappeared on the turn. then i made a reply video, me going up on the same set of stairs, making it look i was following her, wearing a horrible all white suit (holy crap! WTF). the dream was really like a...humorous...romantic silent film video. then i knocked on her door, she allowed me to enter. then we started...playing around in her bedroom. this lasted for quite some time. it ended with us beneath the bed sheets with our heads peeking out, smiling. then shift to a scene where she was carrying a baby on the patio and me coming out of the door to change shifts with her in taking care of the infant (ive never had this kind of dream before, thus the panic). when i woke up, i thought, "what a nice dream". then after ive replayed it in full, i was like, "no, no, no, no, no, no,....you cant do this to me. no, no, no." like robin scherbatsky to ted mosby. there's a part in the dream where my cousin told me that i better be sure if im going to take the big leap.
im not sure if there was a background music during the dream but now that im trying to recall it, the song that's in my head, which looked appropriate for the videos, is Nine in the Afternoon by Panic! at the Disco
Thursday, July 26, 2012
dream recall
the dream was like some film set in the not so distant future. cant recall how the dream actually started but what i can remember was i was in a bus along with some other people. we were like being transferred to some facility or quarantine area. there's some kind of deadly virus spreading outside that kills upon contact and strangely enough, some of the windows of our bus were open. minutes later, water came splashing outside the bus. i witnessed some of the passengers who were sitting near the open bus windows and who were hit by the water, which i guess contained the virus, suddenly develop sores and they were screaming like the water was some kind of acid or something. they died a minute later. those who were hit by only a drop of the contaminated water started sweating profusely like they had some high fever or something. the ones in charge of the bus immediately directed us, those who werent hit by the contaminated water, to move away from the infected ones. i reached the destination safely and started to go to the restroom. thats where i met morgan freeman who was working as a janitor. he was a bit pissed because i opened the door too widely and i hit him with the door. i apologized, did my business and went out. next thing i remember, i was watching politicians conduct some press briefing. one of the congressmen was eating some food served to them, some hotdog like meat on a stick with a marshmallow on top (the meat and the marshmallow were of the same size and rectangular in shape). the congressman did not eat the marshmallow after smelling it and gave it to his assistant. the assistant wondered why it was given to him because the congressman supposedly loves to eat marshmallows. the congressman merely urged the assistant to eat it. after eating it, the assistant started sweating profusely. minutes later, the same thing happened to the congressman. i went to the restroom again, a different restroom this time and well, surprise, surprise, morgan freeman is there again. i explained to him what i witnessed and he said the virus is actually a modified and more lethal version of small pox. i told him a congressman is about to die on national television. morgan freeman didnt sound like he was actually just a mere janitor. he suggested we take action and then we both exited the restroom and we were surprised to see the surrounding to be deserted and filled with halloween themed mannequins. ok...this just turned into some cheap B movie. we tried looking for some living being since we were surrounded by costumed puppets and automatons. then a woman which i thought was just a moving mannequin suddenly grabbed my arm and morgan freeman said its ok, he knows her. thats the last thing i remember. i woke up since i was late for work.
the surroundings was quite similar to sucker punch.
and there's only one familiar face in my dream aside from morgan freeman. somebody that i used to know and havent really talked to for almost three years. she was on the bus with me. she just walked by while i was sitting on my window seat and she gave me a look as if saying were in a place where only the strong survive.
Friday, September 16, 2011
dream recall
there was this party where i was the host. and she was there with our other friends, whom i havent seen for more than a decade. i only showed interest in talking to her and our other friend. i kept asking her to update me about our other friends (well, more of acquaintances to me since its really more of her friends). she just kept saying shy answers (i even joked whether she was on drugs because she's not normally that shy). she was the last one to leave the party because she couldnt find her car. she was already in tears when i saw her again (i accompanied to other guests to their cars in the parking lot) worrying that her car might have been stolen (she was with her female driver which wasnt really helpful). so we roamed the parking lot together looking for her car (with her female driver behind us). then i decided to wake up, thinking i might be late for work.
one thing i noted in the dream is what she currently looks like. not what she looked like when i last saw her half a decade ago.
Friday, September 09, 2011
dream recall
in my previous dreams of her, i was chasing her but couldnt catch her. now, we were just in the same room, minding our own business despite being aware of each other's presence. well, she's already married in the real world so my conscious self, while in the realm of the subconscious, made me act the way i would in the real world. she's already belongs to someone.
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
after more than a year...
as for the dream recall...
earlier today (i think. the line between reality and the subconscious realm is starting to become thinner which affects my sense of time) i was dreaming about something that made me need my switchblade. why i need a switchblade, i cant really remember. my weapons of choice in my dreams are usually knives and arnis sticks (although ive been on a shooting rampage in one of my dreams and was only stopped by a creepy looking masked entity).
anyway, in my dream, i was looking for my switchblade and it was really taking a lot of time for me to find it. then i realized, "what the fuck, im in a dream!" all i had to do was summon my switchblade. and summon i did. what materialized however was a pathetic looking switchblade that was half the size of my real world switchblade. crap. i cant even concentrate well enough in my dream to make my switchblade magically materialize in my hands. thats all i remember about that dream.
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colorful cuteness
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Monday, November 23, 2009
:)
But then I know it's growing strong
Oh, wasn't the spring, whooo
And spring became the summer
Who'd believe you'd come along
Hands, touching hands, reaching out
Touching me, touching you
Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
I've been inclined to believe it never would
And now I, I look at the night, whooo
And it don't seem so lonely
We fill it up with only two, oh
And when I hurt
Hurting runs off my shoulder
How can I hurt when holding you
Oh, one, touching one, reaching out
Touching me, touching you
Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
Oh I've been inclined to believe it never would
Ohhh, sweet Caroline, good times never seem so good
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Halaga
Langya talaga wala ka bang ibang alam
Namumugtong mga mata
Kailan pa ba kaya ikaw magsasawa
Sa problema na iyong pinapasan
Hatid sayo ng boyfriend mong hindi mo maintindihan
May kwento kang pandrama na naman
Parang pang TV na walang katapusan
Hanggang kailan ka bang ganyan
Hindi mo ba alam na walang pupuntahan
Ang pagtiyaga mo dyan sa boyfriend mong tanga
Na wala nang ginawa kundi ang paluhain ka
Sa libu-libong pagkakataon na tayoy nagkasama
Iilang ulit palang kitang makitang masaya
Naiinis akong isipin na ginaganyan ka nya
Siguro ay hindi niya lang alam ang iyong
Tunay na halaga
Hindi na dapat pag-usapan pa
Napapagod na rin ako sa aking kakasalita
Hindi ka rin naman nakikinig
Kahit sobrang pagod na ang aking bibig
Sa mga payo kong di mo pinapansin
Akala mo'y nakikinig di rin naman tatanggapin
Ayoko nang isipin pa
Di ko alam ba't di mo makayanan na iwanan sya
Ang dami-dami naman diyang iba
Wag kang mangangambang baka wala ka nang ibang makita
Na lalake na magmahal sayo
At hinding hindi nya sasayangin ang pag-ibig mo
Sa libu-libong pagkakataon na tayoy nagkasama
Iilang ulit palang kitang makitang masaya
Naiinis akong isipin na ginaganyan ka nya
Siguro ay hindi niya lang alam ang iyong
Tunay na halaga
Minsan hindi ko maintindihan
Parang ang buhay natin ay napagti-tripan
Medyo Malabo yata ang mundo
Binabasura ng iba ang siyang pinapangarap ko
Sa libu-libong pagkakataon na tayoy nagkasama
Iilang ulit palang kitang makitang masaya
Naiinis akong isipin na ginaganyan ka nya
Siguro ay hindi niya lang alam ang iyong
Tunay na halaga
Monday, October 19, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
girls need to realize
From a guy's point of view:
We guys don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. (yup, why wont the guy get pissed?)
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. (that's understandable if it were a girl...but a guy? a cousin or relative would be ok but i would still feel a little uneasy)
We don't care if a guy calls OR TEXTS you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.Nothing is that important at 2 am that it can't wait till the morning. (nothing good happens after 2am. and memory serves me right, i dont text or talk to anyone beyond 2am unless its really important or she's really important)
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. (this one i agree with. i mean, well...ok...maybe some guys just say it without meaning it...so...it depends if the guy is serious...i guess)
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me. (how can i quote you? this article must have been forwarded so many times that the author is no longer acknowledged)
Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood I'm in. (girls need to learn to take advantage of guys...from time to time)
Let us pay for you! Dont 'feel bad. We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say "thank you". (this one i have my reservations. cmon, a "thank you"? i want to get my money's worth)
Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed. (i would prefer the former. i have a reputation to maintain)
You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are. Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. Or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up. (yup)
Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily. (i fully agree. Sarcsasm is a beautiful thing)
Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/'beautiful" I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand I'm not saying I wouldn't like it either ; )
Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change! Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect. Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "I love you" ..and actually mean it.
Give the nice guys a chance.
Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it's cute.
Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this,
so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.
ADVICE:
*Holding Hands
Girls: If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times. (pfft. just grab it)
*Movies
Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder.
Guys: Lift her chin up and kiss her. (ummm...no...im watching a movie)
*Loving each other
Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it. (sure, why not)
*Laying below the stars
Girls: When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heartbeat.
Guys: Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.
Guys forward this if you agree, girls forward this if you think it's cute.
Girls, repost this as: Written by a guy ♥
Boys, repost this as: Girls need to realize.. ♥
ok...this is a mushy article.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
facebook quiz
Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to ...mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna #### with you might end up crying.
Thursday, August 06, 2009
facebook app
Love Zodiac Profile- Sagittarius
If you are Sagittarius:
You are truly romantic. You are very trustworthy. You tend to get sentimental and feel very bad if someone breaks your trust. You enjoy a great rapport with the opposite sex. Acting mushy comes naturally to you. You are very active and adventurous in your romantic quests. Commitment is a feared word for you. You take time to commit. You do not get too possessive. You love fun and excitement in your relationships. You love to flirt with the opposite sex. You like your independence and want space in your relationships.
Your kissing style:
You are an impulsive kisser. Your deeply passionate kisses are remembered forever.
To attract you, the opposite sex must be:
encouraging, adventurous, stylish, witty, romantic, etc.
You are more compatible with - Gemini, Aries, Leo, Aquarius
You are less compatible with -Cancer, Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn
Thursday, July 30, 2009
facebook app
IQ Bot predicted that these people are most likely to be your SMARTEST FRIENDS with Tristan:
#1. Aimee Abigail Salamat - IQ Bot's Best Prediction
#2. Cheska Sayson - Highly likely (85-90%) to be your smartest friend
#3. Freznel B. Sta. Ana - Medium chance (70-85%) to be your smartest friend
#4. Weng Salonga - OK chance (50%) to be your smartest friend
#5. Kimberly Rose Pagdilao - Highly likely (85-90%) to be your smartest friend
Monday, July 27, 2009
facebook quizzes
facebook app
The Sagittarius is really a centaur -- the lower half is horse, the upper half is a man. The man is holding a bow with an arrow aimed upwards toward the sky. This symbolizes the Sagittarius´ drive to overcome basic animal instincts by aiming his thoughts into the divine realms of the heavens. In other words, Sagittarius is hunting for ideas and experiences that draw you into greater awareness. As such, Sagittarius tend to love adventure, travel and philosophy -- all ways of extending beyond your immediate surroundings.
Element: Fire
The fire of Sagittarius is warming, not hot -- but that´s because it´s far away. It´s like a light in the distance that reminds us why we are heading in that direction or the stars that have been used for navigation. This is the fire of inspiration whose heat can motivate the mind to reach out into the wilderness.
Ninth House: Travel
It´s about foreign travel, higher education -- for that´s travel in the mind and the potential adventure that the future holds.
Key Planet: Jupiter
As the key planet of Sagittarius, Jupiter encourages us to take those opportunities, to live life as an adventure and to believe in something greater than ourselves.
Sagittarius Greatest Strength:
Your undying optimistic attitude
Sagittarius Possible Weakness:
Glossing over problems or avoiding difficult situations
Thursday, July 23, 2009
life path number
Birth Date: 28-11-1983
2+8+1+1+1+9+8+3=33=3+3=6
Below are the analysis of life path number 6:
The Life Path 6 suggests that you entered this plane with tools to become the ultimate nurturer, and a beacon for truth, justice, righteousness, and domesticity. Your paternal, or maternal, as the case may be, instincts with a 6 Life Path exceed all others by a considerable margin. Whether in the home or in the work place, you are the predominant caretaker and family head. While the 6 may assume significant responsibilities in the community, the life revolves around the immediate home and family, for this is the most domestic of numbers. Conservative principles and convictions are deeply ingrained and define your character.
You are idealistic and must feel useful to be happy. The main contribution you make is that of advice, service, and ever present support. You are a humanitarian of the first order. It is your role to serve others, and you start in the home environment. You are very human and realistic about life, and you feel that the most important thing in your life is the home, the family and the friends.
Monday, July 20, 2009
dream recall
and on that same night, had another dream. this came later. this time i dreamt of the looney volatile girl. it was the kind of dream that one wishes would not end. much as i want not to wake up, i had to. we were just chatting...while we lay on the bed. ok...another bed scene. but this one aint obscene. just intimate. chatting about stuff, face to face. what i found interesting was when i woke up, i wasnt as affected as i thought i would. it was like, it was just a dream and its just that.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Lie
Do you remember the scarlet sky we saw back then? We made a promise and a vow while the early summer wind circled us, as we clung close together. Your forced smile holds elongated shadows. I pretend not to notice and continue on. All the while waiting for you to deliver some news at the table.
Empty nights, mornings that will never arrive. I could see them from a mile away. You have forgotten that scarlet sky, we saw back then haven’t you? You broke our promise and we disappeared into the summer wind…and we can’t go back…
This room has lost half it’s sound, color, and warmth…Today has also scattered…I’m shivering and tired, so I sleep.
“I decieved you so easily didn’t I? I hate lies…yet love them.” were your words. If we stay as we are, this pain will hurt us too much, that’s why we said goodbye.
“We’ll see each other again” we said as we waved at each other, but we won’t meet once again will we?
That final lie was such a tender lie…so I won’t forget it.
The scarlet sky we saw that day, I'm sure youll remember it one day. While holding the promise we couldnt keep, we take our first steps down our own path
Friday, July 10, 2009
Your robot name is...
Sunday, June 28, 2009
another of em facebook quizzes
The Week of Independence – Sagittarius 1 November 25- December 2
You are hard to control and in many ways one of the most independent of people. You must feel free to act on your impulses and intuition. Honor and trust are high on your list of priorities and you believe in fairness for yourself and others. You have a strong nurturing side when it comes to animals and children and the less fortunate. You often act impulsively to protect the defenseless. You try to project an air of self assurance and confidence but underneath you are sensitive and insecure. You have enormous willpower and are immensely loyal. You are often unreasonable but do not balk at an open discussion. You are witty and enjoy debate. You have a great need to give rather then receive. You only open up to a few people and share your innermost thoughts. Strengths: Honorable – Intuitive – Responsible Weaknesses: Over Competitive – Impulsive – Temperamental
Friday, May 29, 2009
Tristan took the Personality traits by birth month quiz and got the result: November..
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love
life and love from facebook app
Your Life : You are a capable person but you usually underestimate your own ability. This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to step forward. If you try to give yourself a chance, you can be successful in life. Try to see things on the bright side and you will be happier than ever.
Your Love : You are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one in your heart.Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chicken out before seeing any progress in love.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
dream recall
just had the most wonderful dream and i hope i never forget this dream...thats why im blogging about it now while its still fresh in my head...
i finally have a dream of her. and it was wonderful. we were watching some kind of play. and i sat beside her. and then we held hands. and we just enjoyed sitting beside each other. we just enjoyed the closeness. people who knew us looked and we didnt care. we just kept holding each other's hands and enjoyed it. sometimes, she leaned on my shoulder. saw some friends and relatives while watching the play and introduced her to them. the play ended. we stood up and walked to the parking lot, which was a bit far. and we walked still holding each other's hands. i then told her that she allow me to drive her home that night. thats when the dream ended. i was so happy about the dream. and then got a bit sad. because it might remain a dream forever. but i will never let this dream be forgotten.